Tomorrow is one month since we have been without Henry. I think of him so often and really am happy to have his pictures and other special momentos. This weekend, Jack stayed with his Auntie Joyce and Carl and I had a nice, relaxing weekend together. We took a cooking class which was a lot of fun. The big accomplishment that I feel good about over the weekend is that I put Henry's ashes into my pendant and I just feel good having that done and wearing it. This picture is the same picture that is below from the hospital, however, there is a non-profit organization called Angel Pics that touches up pictures of infants lost during or after birth. They removed the bruising so you can see Henry's face and features better. Again, I am grateful that this is available since I look at these often. I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and a lot of stuff reminds me of Henry. Carl and I both sing the song You Are My Sunshine to Jack and I never knew the second verse until Carl got the song for his Ukelele class. After reading it, I think it is a good description of how I feel when I think about Henry. For those who don't know it (I didn't!), the words are:
The other night dear as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms. When I awoke dear, I was mistaken, so I hung my head and I cried.
I feel this way about Henry sometimes, like I dreamed everything. My sadness is especially bad when I wake up and go to sleep as I tend to think about things more then. Otherwise, the days have been improving though. My headaches are better, I am sleeping a little better and we will never forget or stop thinking about Henry but now there are a lot more times that I can think about him in happy ways and be grateful for the time I had with him, while still missing him.